The day is drawing near as I speak and I really fear the inevitable. How am I supposed to react? How will I feel? Will I be able to control myself? It has been 3 months already and I haven't gotten over it. This is by far the worst I've ever been through. How could I have fallen so hard? This isn't me at all. I used to get over it pretty fast but now... I know it's not worth it but everytime I think about it, it still hurts... What did I do to deserve that kind of treatment? But then again, I was stupid in the first place to fall for it. I should have taken extra precautions and I could have prevented all of these from happening. If I didn't stop it, I will still be stuck in my fantasy world. And now I have to pay the price. This shall be a lesson for me and will be etched deep into my heart. Please God, help me through this phase.